so God... can you explain to me what's going on?
cuz i'm having problems here
i don't know what's going on

afraid to face what's there

i know i've asked you to show me something.. ANYTHING to let me know if anything's still there
and i dont' know if i make things outta nothing or what
ok... i do like to make things out of things...but i don't know if they're really nothings

are they really anything
things always happen when i ask you to show me something
but i don't know if it's just pure coincidence

and i hate feeling like i'm just ... a dummy thinking about fate and stuff
ok... so yeah. i may be a dummy
but it's cuz i have nothing better to do than to make wishes

i asked you once if i should let it go
the next day he miraculously found me at church
i thought that was crazy
i asked you about him now, now that i have a clint issue
and ... did he?... say hey?...
i don't know

everything's confusing
i think it was a hey
what was it God? and i'm so sorry that i didn't do anything
i wish i could just speak up
but i get frozen... and before i know it.. the moment's gone

wow God, and i actually felt like i had courage that day
boy was i wrong
i wish i had courage to say something smart after we passed
but.. i was surprised... mind went blank... moment passed
that's how it goes

well... just bless me and this weekend
love you much God
guide me